20 - My Husband is My Favorite, But I Think I'm Going to Get Divorced
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“No, why are you talking like that.”
I said that thoughtlessly, but my conscience pricked me a little.
Alexis twisted his lips savagely, as if he was also dumbfounded.
“Then how should I say it? My family is discussing such an important matter without me, should I say it with a silly smile on my face?”
He’s sulking properly.
I sighed at Alexis’s sharp tone.
“It’s not like they were discussing anything. It’s not like they deliberately didn’t tell you.”
“Hmph.”
“As you know, I made a fuss with Melissa, and I have to answer the marriage proposal, so I told them not to worry about me. In the first place, I thought you would have heard it from Father or your brother.”
Despite my honest and concise explanation, Alexis pouted as if something was twisted.
“Even so, you could have told me at least once when I came to your room.”
“How often do you come to visit? You come home late every day because of training and stuff, and you just showed your face and left.”
“So, even though I went to see you in the midst of being so busy, you didn’t say a word.”
“…….”
This is a disaster. I thought I was good at arguing, but the situation was too unfavorable.
But I was also upset. I really thought the Duke or Lionel would have told him.
‘Could it be that they knew Alexis was loose-lipped and didn’t tell him on purpose because they were afraid of rumors?’
I was deeply contemplating when a plausible suspicion arose.
“What are you thinking right now! I have a bad feeling!”
Hmm, he’s quick-witted for his size.
I scratched my cheek awkwardly and apologized.
“Anyway, I’m sorry. I didn’t leave you out on purpose, so cheer up.”
To be honest, I wondered if I had to appease him this much, but I couldn’t help it.
I wanted to get along smoothly without any uncomfortable things before the wedding, and more than anything.
“Are you going to be so sulky when you’re leaving for war the day after tomorrow? I said I’m sorry, okay?”
The fact that I found out that Alexis was going to war with the Crown Prince was a big reason.
If I sent him off in this upset state, I felt like I would be planting a death flag for no reason.
Alexis’s lips twitched slightly as he listened to my obedient apology, as if his heart had softened a little.
“You’ll cheer up, right?”
When I asked, pretending not to know, Alexis quickly composed himself and said gruffly.
“Before that, let me ask you one thing. I was really too petty to say it, but why do you treat me differently?”
“Huh?”
“That’s right! You let Melissa call you affectionately even though you’ve only known her for a short time, but why did you do that to me?”
I knew right away what Alexis was talking about.
‘He’s probably asking why I didn’t let him call me older sister.’
If he had asked me while getting angry, would I have had something to say?
No, unless I was Evgenia, that would have been impossible.
In fact, I really didn’t understand.
Why Evgenia hated Alexis and her family so much.
I wondered if there was a behind-the-scenes story, such as his mother passing away after giving birth to Alexis, so I subtly asked Ann when the Duchess passed away, but it had nothing to do with it.
‘Even though he’s big and grumpy, he’s not that hateful, so he must have been really cute when he was younger.’
Was it because I thought that thoughtlessly?
Suddenly, I imagined Alexis, who looked like he wouldn’t even reach half my height, running up to me.
Sister! This is a gift!
You. I told you not to call me sister!
Th, then how about older sister?
To the boy who smiled as he handed me the wildflowers in his arms despite my sharp reply, I, no, Evgenia, threw the bouquet on the floor and trampled on it.
My brow furrowed at the illusion, whether it was my imagination or a memory.
The boy’s face, which was blurred as he looked at the ruined flowers, looked so sad that I said without realizing it.
“Then call me sister now, if you want. Older sister is fine too.”
At that moment, Alexis’s face contorted as if a painful wound had been touched.
“Am I crazy? To call you that?”
“Why are you yelling?”
“Do you have to ask?!”
I came to send him off with good intentions.
I felt like I had only made him feel worse, so I felt awkward.
That’s why I couldn’t leave like this.
“I’m sorry, okay? Cheer up.”
“…….”
I thought he would kick me out right away.
Unexpectedly, Alexis didn’t tell me to leave, even though his chest was heaving.
As I waited quietly for his anger to subside, Alexis broke the silence first.
“Then later… if I come back safely, can I go there? Then I’ll cheer up.”
“There? Where is there?”
“Where else? Where you are. Rudion Castle.”
Ah.
The moment I paused and closed my mouth, Alexis’s already sharp eyes became even more sullen.
“Why! We’re going to be family anyway, so I have to say hello properly! I can’t even see the wedding!”
……Family.
That’s why I hesitated. Because I hoped that after the wedding, my relationship with House Basilian would naturally be severed.
“Don’t tell me you can’t? Then I won’t cheer up like this?”
Alexis threatened me as if he had caught my weakness because I had apologized a little while ago.
‘I can’t believe it. Who was trying to cheer him up for my own good?’
Besides.
“Why are you saying such ominous things that sound like you’re planting a death flag?”
“Huh? Planting what?”
“‘If I come back safely’! Why are you saying something so obvious like that?”
“You just said it was obvious, right? Then you’re inviting me to Rudion Castle?”
“Ha…… Okay.”
I couldn’t possibly disappoint a guy who was leaving for the battlefield.
After living indifferently like strangers for his whole life, he still felt sorry that he couldn’t attend the wedding as my brother.
And I was impressed that he was willing to accept strangers as family.
……No, actually, it’s just that I wanted to answer that way.
I said that to Alexis, leaving behind many reasons.
When I saw Alexis smiling brightly at my words, a corner of my heart ached strangely.
It bothered me so much that I grumbled for no reason.
“Buy a lot of gifts and come. When you see Duke Ludion, treat him with respect as your older brother.”
“Of course. I’m a person who knows my place!”
I glared at him for adding that he was only rude to me, but Alexis laughed foolishly, knowing that he had done something wrong.
Looking at him like this, he looks like a clueless kid, but he’s going to the battlefield.
I sighed softly and added awkwardly.
“By the way, I can’t go to the victory parade, so don’t sulk again, saying I don’t treat you like a younger brother or something?”
“When did I ever sulk! And why are you saying something so obvious? It’s not like you’ve ever attended. Until now, you haven’t even given a handkerchief to a complete stranger…… Huh?”
The guy who was constantly rambling as if he was secretly upset while pretending not to be, looked dumbfounded as he looked at the handkerchief I took out.
“Here, okay?”
I’m glad I brought it just in case.
Alexis’s attitude, which had been high-handed all along, became strangely docile.
“Is this really a dream or reality?”
“Are you that happy?”
“Who said I’m happy? I’m just curious. I’m receiving something like this from you after living my whole life.”
If you’re going to say that, then take care of your twitching lips.
Looking at Alexis, who was completely relaxed and fiddling with the plain, purplish-blue handkerchief that didn’t even have the Basilian Ducal House’s crest, I felt a tickle on my cheek for no reason, and suddenly, a very important memory that I had forgotten came to mind.
“Hey!”
“Ah, you scared me. Why are you suddenly yelling?”
“I thought I had to get your attention like this to make you listen, since you’re so loose-lipped, what are you going to do about it?”
I glared fiercely, as if overturning the soft and warm atmosphere from just now.
“You, if you ever talk about me in front of the Crown Prince again? You’re really going to die. And of course, don’t say that I’m getting married. Got it?”
