Chapter 14
Husband is the Protagonist of an Incarnation 14
However, that wasn't the only thing confusing him right now.
'...I know. I know how sorry you feel for only making me sleep next to you.'
'You felt sorry and blamed yourself for only being able to give me an arm pillow.'
'…What?'
They're a married couple, so why have they only been sleeping?
Why is an arm pillow the only thing he can give his wife?
He couldn't understand what all this meant.
Suddenly, he lowered his hand from his face.
He had one guess.
'Could it be that I'm, impotent…?'
His thoughts stopped as if time had stopped.
He was speechless at the unimaginable shock.
Well, this body wasn't originally his, so there might be circumstances he doesn't know about-.
Still, even so.
'This can't be.'
Confused, he wiped his face again. He wandered around the room, burying his face in one hand.
Why hadn't he noticed the signs sooner?
Even though his body had changed, the basic functions didn't feel any different, so he never dreamed that could be the case.
'I'm impotent, I….'
It seems this isn't the reward he received after saving the world.
This was another huge ordeal.
The System reward turned out to be no money, no house, loss of title, and now this too…….
He'd never even used it in his previous life!
First, he calmly placed his hand on the window sill.
There might be a misunderstanding.
Some reason why he couldn't have a normal relationship with his wife…….
Could it be that he wasn't really impotent before his soul changed?
Or maybe he's a homosexual who can't be with women?
Or what else could it be?
Without Alex's memories, he couldn't know the truth at all.
'Damn it.'
He gritted his teeth and turned his head to check the door.
Once he was sure no one would come in, he glanced down.
Come to think of it, he definitely felt it earlier……?
He felt like he had instinctively reacted to the sudden hug…….
“……”
A suffocating silence flowed.
He swallowed hard once, and his protruding Adam's apple rose and fell.
Soon, he slowly lowered his hand.
A volume that felt alive, a pulse that felt like it had a self, and a temperature that felt alive and hot.
'It's so normal……?'
There was nothing wrong with his function.
He'd have to check again tomorrow morning, but considering he hadn't noticed it until now, and looking at his current condition, it was clear that he was normal.
Just in case, he checked his health status one more time.
At that moment, a dizzying thrill spread through his entire body like a shiver.
“……!”
Alex flinched and withdrew his hand, as if all his senses were stimulated at the same time.
This wasn't just healthy, it was sensitivity itself.
Was it originally this immediate to stimulation……?
Then, he raised his head, ruffled his hair, and headed for the bed.
He was momentarily so pathetic that he wondered what he was doing.
He hadn't even taken a few steps when.
Feeling a sudden sense of unease, he stopped as if frozen.
“……”
Really, that momentary hug.
Where did his blood rush to in that short hug?
He felt a sense of crisis, as if all the blood in his body had rushed in at once.
His body didn't react that immediately under normal circumstances.
In fact, his body wasn't very generous with stimuli related to sexual desire.
He wasn't attracted to even the most beautiful women. Even accidental contact felt like stone to him.
Even the hands that deliberately tried to seduce him were very boring and cumbersome.
That didn't mean he had a body and soul that couldn't love a woman.
It was just that he hadn't met someone who made his instincts rise to the surface.
But what was his condition now?
He reacted to the stimulation of the opposite sex as easily as possible.
Alex stood there for a while, struck by an unbelievable realization.
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'Ah, I should have just not said anything.'
A feeling of futility washed over me.
I stared at the spot where Alex had disappeared for a moment, then returned to reality.
The candles that hadn't been completely extinguished were lighting up the second-floor hallway.
'……How embarrassing. I'm going to be kicking my blanket later.'
I never thought Alex would reject my words so quickly.
I couldn't shake the feeling that I had gone too far in something the other person didn't even want.
My husband's dignified voice came back to life.
'I'm sorry.'
'I'll go in first today.'
“……”
Then why did he say he would be the perfect husband?
Unless he's planning to be a ghost husband after he dies.
I clenched the hem of my dress tightly for no reason.
I was trying to understand his situation after he said he would get a divorce and ate rat poison.
I unexpectedly thought he had found a house and wanted to try to live well again.
But he can't even just sleep with me…….
At this point, I couldn't help but feel pathetic.
'Alex. Does he hate me?'
Or was he just too tired from looking for a house outside all this time?
Yeah. That must be it.
There's no way he hates me…….
As I comforted myself, a question suddenly popped into my head.
'Come to think of it, we've never said we liked each other……?'
He and I had never expressed romantic feelings for each other.
It's just that he's my husband and I'm his wife, so we've both just been trying to fulfill that duty.
I had no idea if he loved me, or if he had even the slightest romantic interest in me.
If we were just strangers who weren't married, would he have even glanced at me?
'……I don't know.'
Hoo.
A heavy sigh came out from the bottom of my heart.
But.
'Then do I love him?'
I couldn't deny that he, my husband, was perfectly my type, but I wasn't sure if that was love.
It's just that since I'm married to him, Alex is the only person I can love.
I let out a faint sigh and raised my hand holding the snuffer towards the candle.
I thought I should just put out the remaining candles and go to sleep.
The candle extinguisher got closer to the light.
Whoosh.
But the candle in front of me went out even faster.
……Huh?
Did the wind blow too hard when I raised my arm?
I just casually took a few steps and approached the next candle.
This time, I tried to bring the snuffer closer.
Whoosh.
“……?”
The candle just went out again.
Where is the wind coming from right now?
I looked around for no reason and tried to feel the wind, but the air flow was still.
I couldn't see any open windows either.
I was a little puzzled, but I tried to think it was nothing. I was just about to take a step towards the next candle.
At that moment, Alex's words, which I had forgotten, came to mind.
'Apparently, there's a ghost in that house, and everyone who comes in runs away.'
Oh, crap.
No way.
It can't be…….
I looked around with a stiff neck.
I couldn't see anyone.
I wouldn't be happy unless it was a housekeeping AI ghost that specializes in household chores, automatically turning off the candles from the first night I moved in.
I wanted to run to Alex right away, but my frozen feet wouldn't move towards my heartless husband.
'The wind must have just leaked in from somewhere.'
Trying to comfort myself, I brought the snuffer to the candle that was still lit.
There were still about five candles shining along the hallway.
If even these went out on their own, I wouldn't be able to deny that it was really the work of a ghost.
I took a deep breath.
The small candle flickered, dripping wax.
'Please, candle, don't go out. Let me put you out.'
Soon, the snuffer covered the candle, and the light went out.
I let out a big breath that I had been holding in.
'Ah, thank goodness. I guess it was just my imagination.'
I put out all the remaining candles and went back to my room.
I took off my coat and got into bed, closing my eyes.
Let's go to sleep quickly, quickly.
But why can't I fall asleep?
The first night sleeping in this house.
The cozy bed felt strangely unfamiliar, and the room felt awkward like someone else's house.
'Think of it as a hotel, just.'
I have to wake up early tomorrow and wash the blankets first.
I have to take down all the curtains and wash them.
How busy will I be before I have to feed the three of us?
'Let's sleep. I have to sleep…….'
But I had too many thoughts in my head, and my nerves were on edge in all directions.
The voice of rejection that came to mind without fail.
'I'm sorry.'
'I'll go in first today.'
“……”
I couldn't fall asleep for a long time after that.
